A year ago today I had an accident. I fell off my bike. At the time I was staying at the Ace on 29th street, painting a mural in room 310. I was in my element, with a couple of days left until completion, when my boys of Grand Army called and told me to come down to SoHo and greet the spring weather at a party Mother was having. I was hesitant, but caved and joined them.

Like any good party, there were girls there. We met some. They left with us and we went to Home Sweet Home. From here things get fuzzy.

I remember our group deciding to change venues. They were to take a cab. I was to bike and meet them. At 7th and A, with not a soul in sight, my front wheel fell off and I went over my handlebars with the purple grips. I caught myself. Every last trace of air left my lungs and my reflexes popped me back up the instant I made contact with the pavement. The impact was so great that every button on my jacket popped off, and all that was left of the riveted button on my Dunderdon workpants was a large hole. I was a block away from my destination, so I called my friend Logan, who I knew was already there. He came out and hailed me a cab, urging me to ditch my bike and go to a hospital. I put the bike in the back of the cab and went to the Ace.

The Ace was still under construction at the time and only the service elevator, which was on the opposite side of the hotel, was operational. With my bike on my shoulder, backpack on and wheel in hand, I took said elevator to the fourth floor, got out, walked across the length of the hotel and down two flights of stairs.

It was around 2am. I would spend the next five hours trying to lie down, though the pain in my shoulders and neck was so great that I couldn’t lower myself past 20 degrees. I’m aware of how insane it was for me to take so long to bring my broken self to the hospital, but I was drunk with pain and all logic had gone out the window. I had decided to wait until the sun came up before leaving my nest. I tried to roll a joint. I tried to go to the bathroom. I paced gingerly. I felt around my trunk, examining the ribs I suspected to be broken.

Around 6:30am I walked ever-so-slowly down to the street corner to hail the cab that would bring me to the hospital. I got one, and upon seeing my weak state and hearing my mumbled request to get me to a hospital – I don’t care which one – the driver told me to get out. I refused. I pleaded, promised a generous tip, just get me there. The frustrated driver couldn’t get me out of his cab fast enough, dropping me off at the entrance to the emergency room at Beth Israel Hospital.

I made eye contact with a nurse upon entering, but followed procedure and filled out the paperwork. Waiting, I decided I could wait no longer, for I had lost my ability to breathe. I said fuck it and walked to the back and got the nurse’s attention. She settled me down, and the healing began.

X-rays and ultrasounds ensued. The ribs I thought broken were just fine, it was my liver that was fucked. My inability to breathe was a result of all the blood in my chest and gut. The impact of the fall had caused my liver to rupture, leaving several lacerations on this important – yet regenerative! – organ. I had bled, internally, 1/3 of my blood, separated both shoulders, and broken some little, inconsequential bones in my wrist.

I’ve already written more than I wanted and I haven’t even gotten to what this post is about, so I’ll skip all morphine-induced anecdotes – but, boy are there a lot, hella funny, too – and cut to the chase. This was meant to be a thank-you to all of the people that visited, called, texted or emailed. Once I mended my gut and was a normal person again, I kept hearing the same question: “How did the experience change you? What did you come out of it with?” My answer was, and is, always the same. I saw how great my friends are. I saw how amazing my dad is (he had flown from Minnesota and was beside my hospital bed within twelve hours of my phone call). I got closer to him. Talked about things I’ve never talked to him about. Real shit.

It’s funny that it takes being one-third dead (or two-thirds living, depending on how you see the glass) for you to become aware and appreciative of the people in your life, but that’s just the way things work for some of us. So thank you,

Jay - For looking after me. For being a dad, an older brother and best friend all at the same time.

Miranda - For treating recent history as the distant past. For getting into my hospital bed and watching cartoons with me. For being so consistently good, despite my repeated failure to reciprocate.

Mr. Santos - For not having a bad bone in your body.

Doctors of Beth Israel - For fixing me.

Cute Indian Intern at Beth Israel - For smiles. And being cute.

Loren - For taking this rad polaroid.

Jelly - For calling. I was high on morphine, but I remembered, and it meant a lot.

Jou-Yie & Everyone at the Ace - For your patience and understanding when I wasn’t painting, and tolerance and sense of humor when I was.

Sasha - For being the coolest, most capable person I know. I love you, but I’m pretty sure my Dad loves you more.

Joe and Mike - For being you. And there. Always. I’ll make it up to you one of these days.

Dad - For a lifetime of bailouts and second-chances for your life-long-knucklehead of a son. I don’t think I’ll ever make it up to you, but I’m trying.

When digging around on an old hard drive the other day,  I came across this little ditty I made in the final months of my life as a student in Wieden + Kennedy 12. The video was made as part of our submission to The One Show in the category for self-promotion.

It details the recruitment process we used in wrangling the third class of 12 – which, in my opinion, stands alone as the best group of makers, doers and thinkers the program has seen.